(written: June 10, 2007)

It was me at a lost, it was me disappointed, it was me defeated by this recent battle I thought I would win. I thought I stand a chance. I thought the happy song had finally begun but I thought wrong.

I have never doubted that I am strong and brave and reasonable but don’t tell me not to be disheartened, don’t tell me not to be crashed because I am (Damn! I am!!!). What I feel and what I think at the moment are the things you cannot control, the things you cannot dictate. Do not tell not to be me, at the moment I really had to be.

You said everything with simplicity like it is just some random thought that came up.  I’ve always thought that this is an act of bravery; please don’t make me think that it’s just plain and simple stupidity.