(written: Jul 14, 2009)

I hope I never have to be lonely, or ever feel alone. How I wish friends, family and the ones who choose to sit beside us are enough to feel these empty days.

I wish I never have to long for that joy I used to know or feel and have, and look at myself waiting for the moment when you’ll finally decide to say hello.

I need some self respect. You didn’t do anything. I just think I value my pride too much and I can’t keep giving it up over and over again. Or else I’ll just lose my sense of self respect.

I owe myself this pride. Is it wrong to choose pride over small chances and moments of happiness? Tell me I didn’t give up something I should regret. Tell me it’s not wrong to choose to stay away while you still couldn’t hurt me as bad.