((written: July 24, 2006)


What could be worse than drinking alcohol all weekend?


Watching TV and DVDs for 48 hours and resting to listen to sad songs and read old journals.


No.  I did not break up with a guy nor did I fall in love with someone who could not love me back.  Not all girls break down for those reasons.  I have worse reasons. 

I do not know how long I stayed awake or if I even slept.  The things that are happening to me are just hurting me so much and I can’t even deal with them the right way.  I tried stealing the coping mechanism of those who broke their hearts coz it’s easier and it’s the only way I could let it all out.